That first great love.
Hello! hopeless romantic (Evvi) here.
It’s about 10:00 PM on a Friday night,
I’m sitting here on my bed with my Vanilla Pumpkin Marshmallow candle lit and Miley Cyrus on in the background.Today, I was thinking about the great mystery that is love, like always,
and I thought I’d write about it...
Everyone talks about how your first love is the one that changes you.
Your first love is the one that sets the bar for all future relationships because not only is it your first,
but you’re also ignorant to the pain that is heartbreak. You don’t know that feeling until it happens.
If you’ve never had your heart broken; good for you you lucky duck. Enjoy that.
If you’ve had your heart broken once, or many times, good for you.
You’re still here and you’re a tough one. And most importantly, you’re still out there willing to love again.
I got to thinking about some people I know, who have been telling stories about dating the same person since they were 15, and are now married to that very same person. No breakups, never dated anyone else. At first I was freaking out a little bit. I mean, I know myself and I know that I would just be
too curious and always wonder who else was out there if I had only
dated one person and then married them. Then my panic turned to envy.
Those people never have felt heartbreak in the way i have;
losing your significant other to someone else or when life takes them away from you.
These people marrying their high school sweethearts have no one to compare their love of their life to.
No one out there to wonder about what they’re doing.
No one to wonder who the new person in their ex’s life is. Ignorance is bliss.
Most of us however aren’t so lucky.
We all have that one great love who changed everything.
This person doesn’t have to be necessarily the first person you spoke the words
“I love you” to, it has to be that one. If you have someone in your life like this,
you know exactly who that person is when I say that one.
They are the ones who paint the picture of love you have to look at for the rest of your life.
The person who defines how you argue, how you feel about wearing certain clothes,
how you feel about wearing lipstick. This is the person who you actually
were able to envision your whole life with, then had to change the plot.
Now I strongly believe that everything happens for a reason and exactly how it’s supposed to.
That one person in your life isn’t in your life for a reason and because of that,
you’ll meet the one that’s supposed to be there. That’s what brings me to learning how to cope with the one that, well, got ya.
When you’re sitting with your new love
and an old habit starts to creep in, don’t let it. Stop. This person is not your ex.
This is a new person that will hopefully love you for exactly who you are.
That person who is going to delete the ex from your brain.
Do what you wanna do!!! Forget the one that made you question every move you made,
including what or who you tweeted because this new person isn’t your ex.
Forget worrying about not being or acting in a certain way because, yep,
THIS PERSON IS NOT YOUR EX.
You’re going to be yourself your entire life, so get used to it.
Get comfortable in that skin because you’ll find someone who loves every bit of you in it.
Most importantly, be able to accept that someone can love every bit of you,
because sometimes that’s the hardest part. You don’t look at yourself the way someone who loves you does, and that’s okay. That’s what makes that person so special.
You’ll always have that one great love in your life. They’re a part of you and they always will be.
You gave them a little bit of your heart, and that’s okay. One day though,
you won’t look back and miss them. You won’t wanna run to them, drunk text them or call them,
you’ll be thankful. You’ll be able to look back and be thankful that they loved you the way they did;
because that special someone can love you… well… perfectly.
Keep your heads up and your hearts open my loves.
Xo Evvi
